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Theories. Knowledge. Truth. Reason. Humans have always had a certain knack for wanting to invent the world instead of letting the world invent itself. Control nature, don't let it grow “wild”. What does wild even mean? Not behaving according to its nature? But, are we really doing that ourselves? I hear a lot about people's “inner nature” or society's “current reality” - usually these opinions circle somewhere around two of our favorite buzzwords, around “good” and “evil”. Yes, it is so simple to say this. That society is currently evil and people are tired of consumption. That society is at the height of its capabilities, that no culture has ever had the mind-blowing knowledge and technologies we are currently able to enjoy (and maybe, just maybe, putting on a pedestal?). Easy is it, to determine that people are “inherently good creatures” manipulated by their governments and “wrong societal standards”; or that they are “downright evil” and can only be controlled by a well-functioning “rule for and by the people”. The people. Who are they anyway? The abstract concept of what a human “is”, or the masses of people that want “the same thing”? Controlled, or controlling? Theories. Knowledge. Truth. Reason. Don't fall prey all too easily to people who are here to tell you what “life is all about”. How would they know? Have they lived every possible life a human being can choose to live? Can they know, with absolute certainty, that their path will be remotely valuable to your mindset? Science is a marvelous thing, fascinating to its core. I can only be happy to be living in times where the possibilities to “figure things out” are accelerating, because what person wouldn't want to “know” the deepest, most hidden truth? Regardless of whether or not we get it, we love to know. Theories. Knowledge. Truth. Reason. Yes, they are seductive. Very much so. But here's the question, the one that people dislike the most. Not the one asking whether there is a sense to life, but the one wondering if we will ever know. Are we not a billion times too tiny, our brains too small, our lives too short, to ever find out what we want to know the most? What is life? How to live it? Who cares what I do in life? Should I behave a certain way? Do I have an inner nature at all? Can I raise my children according to eternal laws of goodness that will make them into the most lovable people ever, like science is trying to tell me? Or is it all just chance? A coincidence, a good or bad turn, a new part of a story that will never find an end? Theories. Knowledge. Truth. Reason. Feelings. Yes, feelings. We should never forget that whatever drives these first four, it has to be something that elicits a response in our minds. A happy response, excited, fascinated, drawn to something, seduced by something type of response. Can you feel it? The never-ending line of questioning? Let go. Just let it all go. Happiness. Sense. Life. Love. These are things you can find. But it won't be in someone else's theory, it won't be through knowledge alone, even if it may help. Being human, it doesn't mean just this or that, it's everything. It's you. Love your life, before it's over. Love yourself. Find that the only truth that matters, the only theory that helps, the only knowledge you can be certain of, the only reason to do anything at all is how you feel about what you do. Grow wild. Don't let others control you, don't control. Become one with yourself, and you will see that it truly happens to everyone willing to go the extra mile. Passion. A deep, burning fire. That is the only inner nature I care about, the only way to let yourself be invented by a world instead of trying to invent it, trying to make it “true”. Yes, it is the only way to be, instead of trying to dominate what you and others think life should be. Life isn't for or against anything, life isn't moral, life doesn't make the distinction between good and evil. You do. You and your Theories. Knowledge. Truth. Reason.